As I write this post, I’m at a co-worker’s house as I am just wrapping up spending a couple of nights on her couch. I was feeling really stressed out on Friday and wasn’t in the greatest of moods. I’m going through some things personally and at the time, I couldn’t see a way out. In fact, I could. I know better things are coming (it’s actually confirmed) so it’s not like I don’t have anything planned in place. In the meantime though, I’m not gonna lie; things aren’t great. I know for a fact (or from my experience at least) that things tend to get worst (or really bad) before they get better.
In the latter part of last year (thanksgiving all the way through new years eve) really sucked for me. I was feeling really lonely. I was very unhappy with my housing and money situation. My grades weren’t great and was feeling dejected. However, around at the beginning of the year I was determined to not start the year off super depressed. Eventually things began to line up for me and little by little things started looking up for me.
Things have been going pretty well (with the occasional pop visit from “Delores”) for me and I’ve been really grateful for it. A few weeks ago, I was on Instagram and I saw a post from Ed Mylett. He was stating that we should just be grateful for things when it seems like things are dire for us. Now I understand that a lot of people I actually follow say the same thing (Sarah Ordo, Cara Alwill Leyba, Karena Dawn from Tone It Up) and I’ve read it many many times before but what he said really hit home. He said one thing anyone can be grateful for is the weather no matter the condition. For example, if its raining, we can be grateful for the nourishment it’s giving the grass and plants. If it’s sunny, we can be grateful for the warmth and sunshine. Let it snowball from there.
I have anxiety (as was discussed previously). and so last month on JW Broadcasting they had a special on Anxiety and it was such a good one. It gave Bible versus for us to read when we get anxious, tips for how to deal, and they showed a music video. Honestly, when I saw the music video Each Day Has Its Own Anxieties, it stood out to me. I took the words to heart then and I take it to heart now! I think about how God has blessed me and how I have the little things to be grateful for. It’s great to take things one day at a time. you can’t stress about tomorrow, next week, next month.
And look I totally get it (hence my funk I was in on Friday). You are allowed to have bad days (don’t ever let anyone say you can’t). The thing is to not stay down. Don’t wallow in the pits of despair. Trust me, you don’t wanna go down that rabbit hole. If you do, you’ll just keep thinking about EVERYTHING that’s wrong in your life. I stayed in my sadness for a day and while things aren’t totally fixed, I know it won’t be bad forever (next month is gonna be great) and it can be the same for you. Worry about only what you can do to make it better and don’t be afraid to reach out to someone when you need help.
I wish you guys love and light today and each and everyday!